Someone said something that still lingers in my head after a few months: “You’re going through your quarter life crisis. You’ll go back to teaching because you’re so good at it. You’ll figure it out and go back.”
I think what bothers me about that statement is my belief that being good at something doesn’t mean you have to do it.
“It just wasn’t your passion.”
Ouch. I try not to take that offensively, but I think I do. I wish I didn’t because … it STILL IS, but in a different capacity. You know what I honestly want to do? Volunteer. Mentor. I’m not giving education up. My passion never wavered. I still sub, but I wanted more time to privately tutor, to volunteer with reading programs, and to also mentor at risk and incarcerated youth. I can’t do that teaching full time. I can doing all those things now.
As for pursuing graphic design? I don’t know that I’m going to stick with it, but what I know for sure is that I can’t live my life thinking ‘what if?”. I can wonder or I can just do it. If it doesn’t work out, at least I tried.
So yes, maybe I will end up going back to teaching, but it has nothing to do with a crisis. It will be because I tried graphic design and I learned it wasn’t what I wanted. I need to be able to say with 100% certainty, but I just can’t do that without trying it first.
“What would you do if you knew you had nothing to lose?”
I’d pursue graphic design, travel the world, volunteer more, and be my own boss. That’s what I’d do. Better yet, that’s what I’m starting to do.